I did not have a proper update for like a week already and here I am, back to the old cheerful me once again. I supposed???(: Apologies that I made my blog looked really EMO on each post cuz I'm really too sad. Too sad till cannot even maintain hehehe but I'm glad I'm finally ok now!

Went Bishan for movie and we watched "Perfect Rivals". KKK I freakin should have watch "World Invasion: Battle Los Angeles" instead because the show that we ended up watching turns out to be so BORED. Not exactly very boring but quite. Out of 5 I think I'll rate it like maybe 3. K and no point regretting we can always watch next week Miaooo~

Had Meepok for lunch. The Meepok near Bishan Interchange is like the best Meepok I've ate so far. If I'm super hungry ytd I think I can eat another bowl, k kidding.

YumYums. Craving for their Meepok already like now I think I'm gonna have another bowl aft school later. Fattening but hello??? At our age who cares about gettin fat? We must have enough food and nutrition!!!

Went to school after that for History Class(: 4th Lesson already and I still catch no balls on what the teacher is talking about. Amazing...

I'm off to prepare for school soon after updating in Tumblr.. Just came back from Hougang Point for Mac for breakfast!!!  And sigh... Mommy has already left us for 1 week and I miss her alot. I felt so not used to it without seeing her at home. Can you appear in my dream tonight? I wish... 

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Gonna be back like this Friday/Saturday with tons of updates again... Getting used to life without mommy already but I still miss her alot... Seeing her suffer also can make me cry alot. Well, I'm so glad and appreciate you people for the concern and condolences. I'm fine already. K, I'm off to Xinmsn already to watch my channel8 show and I'm gonna Tag hearts after repatching my 6 multi client hehehe. And lastly, Thanks to readers who are still reading my blog ;)

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Rest in peace mummy. Glad that you left the world with no regrets, you closed your eyes with tears flowing and smiled and you're already with god now. It's quite shocking that someone can leave the world smiling, and that's you my prettiest mum. Ty for raising me up for 17years. I miss you.

I finally decided to have a proper post before I turn in to bed... So yup2...


Bb boy is all the way with me today since 12pm. Supporting me and I finally smile and laugh abit. No? Awaken by my alarm at 9.30am, prepared and headed to his place at around 11.30am. Had breakfast and we went to some random interview that I founded at Gumtree and we was practically been scam by some promoters. Instead of asking us to work they're down there promoting their slimming milkshake asking us to buy it for 2 for $140. Ended up being scam. Wasted an hour over thr, suck like hell.






Visit mommy again over at Mount E and met Belle there and she came along with us. She came back from Taiwan and bought us some gift. And what she bought was freakin' mad cute.





Ever seen chocolate's that are made like condoms with comdoms package? Definitely no in Singapore! Too ultra cute already.

And i almost forgot that I was pissed off bcuz someone just spoiled my mood when i was in the hospital with mommy today. I seriously don't get it why is she always pickin on me. I don't even think she had any position to do that!!! Screw it like duh?










I guess as time goes by... I'm accepting the fact that afterall mommy is still gonna leave me, Accepting the fact that I still got to let go of it and continue doing great with life. But, As usual. Miracles can happen. But will god let miracles go to mommy? I'm praying that he will... She just got to stay more STRONGER...

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Finally settled down and chilled down abit today. And yup. I'm still holding on to miracles for mommy as long as she's still alive, although the doctor said he can't do anything anymore? So what? It does not mean mommy is gonna give up. No she won't. She's still believing that she'll recover. She'll definitely stand up again and nag at me like how she used to. Cried for like days already. I just can't stop seeing her in this state, she look so weak. Her face... It's getting blacker.. and blacker... On the last post when i blogged about her, She's still fine. She still can talk to me, she still remembers me. But now what? What happened to her now? Why Isn't she responding to us? I can't stop crying. The moment I think about the past, the past when she treat me so good. Thinking about last week, she still can call me when I'm in school and tell me she's bored in the hospital. Thinking about how she's still fine at home watching her fav korea drama while lying on her bed a few weeks ago before she has been admitted to the hospital. She always get me to buy her fav Ice green tea with pearl... I miss it. I miss that feelin'. I miss how she always ask me to take this and take that for her. I was hoping 1 day she can recover and order me again. But can she? I missed how came down all the way to Pcbunk in the past to hunt for me. Or even came down to Era to find me. I still remember how she used to sit at my bed and H2H talk with me despite her being so tired. I even said she is irritating. How can i? I still remember how she fed me my medicine when i'm sick just b'cuz she want me to recover. Now it's my turn to feed mommy..

Yesterday in the hospital... Had a good last talk with her before she go... But i really hope she'll not go. Telling her I'll be taking care of my family and doing good in my studies and asking her to not to worry so much. And also telling her I'll be waiting for her to be recover so that we can go oversea together as a family. I hope we can. I can't seem to sleep so well now. I kept tossing around in my bed right and left. I can't stop thinking. I cried when I'm asleep. I Dream of mommy when i go to sleep. I prayed for her before i go to sleep. Thinking that 1 day god will answer to my prayer. But can mommy wait for it before god ans to me and  other people's prayer? I know she don't wish to let go, don't wish to give up. Looking at her eyes. When she closes her eye. It's all white. She can't even close it well. She keeps looking up... Yup she is forcing herself to be alive. I won't be updating so much cause I really don't have the mood to do so... Telling myself to accept the fact as days goes by but i just got no confidence to do that. My mind is only about mommy with her helpless state... Oh well, Turning in.. You all can follow me at my twitter to my latest update @ http://twitter.com/eforinez or ask me anything @ http://formspring.com/eforinez And rmb to click my Nuffnang.

Yup... Double Apologies to the lack of updates but I'm so glad that you people are still visiting this boring site of mine. I just came back from SGH and i visited my mummy again today. I really hope miracles will happen that god will answer to our prayers and mum will be healed completely. Seriously... I've thought of it already. I was having my shower and I just completely thought to myself what will happen to me if mum was gone? I guess I can't and won't accept it if she was gone. And yup. I Cried. I cried when i was at my bed, half asleep when grandma told me what daddy told her, how much time she have left. I cried when i was having my shower, I cried when i was halfway doing my makeup. Obviously, i had my makeup ruined. I was totally acting happily in the outside with my friends. Mummy's good friend knew about her conditions and told me to face it. Face the reality. He even told me not to hope for anything anymore but to be good and just cherish and stay with her everyday. Not to have any hope as her conditions are really really bad compared to the past. But I was still clinging on to miracles. I feel like looking through all the photos we took together and smile to myself now... Seeing how beautiful was she. With her long hair, her beautiful features that i admire. Yes, I can swear she's the most beautiful mum that I've got. I still remember that she always went in and out of my school because I was really naughty. And that my friends can even joke and said she want's my mum to be his wife because she is really beautiful! I really wish and hope she could stand up and nag, or scold me like how she used to. Which I hate alot in the past. I guess part of her being like this is because of me. I made her stress, cry, worried for me. If anything would really happen to her, I don't think I could even forgive myself. But I'm glad now... Because she has already forgiven me... I know. I know everyone has to go eventually. As chinese always say ''生老病死'' But my lovely mum is only 43 and she still has a long long journey to go. Please lord. Please help. Mummy, be strong. Please don't leave Me, Daddy, Nigel, Xavier and me alone...

24 hours and 44min left to your birthday. Happy advance birthday mummy... Let god decide everything. He will heal, he will bless you... I'll be a good girl.

Xxx...